It's been a long, long, time since I posted here! For some reason it became harder to blog about being a parent after becoming a single parent - maybe because the challenges are different, the rewards are tempered with the reality of spending half of our time apart due to shared custody, and the struggles are real in terms of never-ending shortages of time, money and patience at times.
But, today in the car, driving to Aqua Camp with an 8 year old Coco sitting beside me, I realized that I should come back to this, even if it's occasionally. We began chatting about words - I don't remember how we got going. He asked what his first word was, and I said "mama" because I remember watching and waiting to see what his first word would be. And off the top of my head, today, I don't remember if it was different than that! He asked what his first 3 syllable word was, and I remembered that one - "coconut" - first said on a trip to Mexico when his Dad and I were still together, and he was about one and a half.
It made me realize the value in this old blog, as a place to park memories when they're fresh, before they really even become memories. And it made me want to come back, even occasionally, to leave my stream of consciousness, or the photos that don't always fit neatly into Instagram or some other distilled version of reality. So that's what I'm going to do, as part of my own personal commitment to writing down these things I have to be grateful for, and probably struggles too. And a place to go back to later when the journey is one with sign posts that make sense only once you get further down the path.
So that's what I'm going to try to do. Stay tuned.
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